I’m sorry that I am the way I am and can’t find the words to explain that to you.
I’m sorry for the thunderstorms I brew in every night, and my inability to talk things out with you without crying.
I’m sorry for being scared of you leaving and my tendency to be so attached.
I’m sorry for caring so much and not caring enough.
I’m sorry for my childish ways and throwing an attitude at you every 30 minutes.
I’m sorry my insecurities eat me in my sleep, and for my self-esteem that dies out throughout the day.
I’m sorry I’m constantly paranoid; It’s just that the last one who promised me forever was so fast to walk away.
I’m sorry I block you out at times, It’s a habit I picked up through the depression and verbal abuse.
I’m sorry that most days I get sad for no reason, and it frustrates you when I can’t explain something I don’t even know myself.
I’m sorry I’m a handful
I’m sorry you have to deal with uneven ground
I’m sorry for it all
But despite everything, I just want to say thank you for sticking around and putting up with me.
Thank you for being the first man in my life who has fought, and continues to fight, to keep me.