This is me, writing to the future you. I want you to know that i’m scared. At this very moment, in this very chair - I am contemplating love and my tendency to let others in all too easily. I am thinking of you and trying to figure out how you made it past my walls. I am shaking at the thought that maybe you might have fucked me, and that maybe you are thinking of leaving.
I’m not sure how long we have been together, or if we’re at all together. I am thinking of how much I might have given myself to you. I’m hoping you already know that I have clung to you entirely and I have no intention of ever really letting go. I’m still unsure if I remain that frantic little girl who is afraid that everyone will hurt her. I hope that’s not you. In fact, I hope you are taking care of my future self. I hope you are kissing her every morning and before bed. I hope you dedicate some of your time to talking and spending time with her, as she does with you. I hope you are treasuring and protecting her like a dad who would die for his little princess. I hope you respect her more than she respects herself, because lord knows she needs someone like that in her life.
I hope you know that above all, she needs your support. If there is one thing she no longer needs, it’s to be brought down. Be her light, her guide, the hand to pull her out of the darkness. I want you to know that wherever you are, whenever you are, and whoever you are .. If it’s you she has her eyes set on. If it’s you that she finally gave her heart to. I need you to know that being with her won’t be easy. So promise me you will try. You will be her best friend, her shoulder, her shelter, her home. She will need you in times of sorrow and desperation. Love and take care of her.
Be a promising man. Intellectually stimulate her and always bud her with a challenge. Have fun. Pray together. Be a humble man, and have faith that she’s doing the same. Be her strength when she is weak.
Lastly, never go a day without telling her that you love her. Treat everyday like it is the last time you will ever hold, see, smell, touch, feel, and embrace her. Engrave it in her so that way if that day ever comes, you won’t have to say anything - she’ll already know.